My Story
Where it all started...
I just wanted to end it all.
I felt lost, beaten down, insecure and undeserving of my dreams.
My goals always felt so out of reach, that I would dismiss any progress I’d made towards achieving them.
I was my own worst enemy.
I’d self-sabotage, as if all my hard work meant nothing, because deep down I didn’t truly believe that I was capable or worthy of achieving success.
I’d tried anti-depressants before, and they just numbed my pain but didn’t get to the root cause of the problem.
Trauma.
They turned me into a robot, and I wanted to experience life with feeling, otherwise I didn’t see the point.
Years of bullying, abuse, trauma and criticism had left me feeling like it was better to shrink myself down and be invisible.
So that’s what I did…
I hid myself away.
I Didn't Believe In Myself
Now, if you were to ask the people who know me, most of them would probably be surprised to hear this.
In fact, they might even disagree.
Why?
Because I knew how to APPEAR
confident in myself.
I became so comfortable with being THAT version of me, that changing myself from the inside didn’t seem like an option.
I had become so accustomed to hiding my pain from everyone else, that I ended up hiding it from myself.
I couldn't face what was going on inside. I couldn't admit to myself that I needed to heal.
It was too scary.
What if I fail?
What if I break?
What will people think?
What if they judge me?
I kept asking myself these questions over and over again, desperate to find a solution.
So, I did what most people do…
I searched for external validation and approval from others.
I changed on the outside.
I Was Completely Lost
I tried to fit into a world where you're just expected to get up, put on a brave face, go out into society and slave away, working to make someone else's dream come true.
I tried to accept this as reality, and 'get on with it', because I didn't truly believe that I was capable or worthy of making my own dreams come true.
I would feel really passionate about something and pursue it with as much energy as possible… and then what would happen?
I would get bored, quit, feel frustrated and unfulfilled. I'd feel like a failure again, hit a wall and wander aimlessly for a little while, only to stumble upon the next 'shiny object'- another new course, a new relationship, a new hobby, a new job, a new ‘lifestyle’…
Many, many times.
Until I realised something.
It didn't matter what I did, I was never happy.
I was self-sabotaging.
I was stifling my own spirit to fit in to what other people expected of me.
I was allowing the opinions of others and the negative voices inside my head to dictate my reality.
I was living in fear of judgement.
I wasn't living in my true purpose.
I was betraying my own soul, and I was manifesting my own failure.
No matter how many times I changed my external environment (my job, my home, my relationships, my personal style), I still didn’t feel confident in myself.
I still didn't feel fulfilled.
Something was missing.
I didn’t feel like I fit in anywhere because I had so many different interests, things I'd picked up along the way, that I didn't know how to find my people.
I preferred to be on my own, but hated it at the same time.
I felt lost and alone.
I was depressed but hopeful at the same time.
I was afraid of my own potential.
I knew I had my whole life ahead of me and SO many dreams of the places I wanted to go to, the people I would meet and the things I wanted to do.
I dreamed of someday having an online business, working from home, connecting with my soul tribe, and creating a life of freedom and abundance.
I just needed a BREAKTHROUGH!
But I had NO DIRECTION.
Now, imagine someone gives you a location to meet them at, but you have no access to any form of navigation assistance.
No map.
No instructions.
No GPS.
Just you and your seemingly broken, unfulfilled and lost self.
THAT’S how I felt.
I Fell Into Darkness
I was distracted. I realised that all of these ‘changes’ I was making were just surface level, they satisfied my hunger for a little while, but they weren’t fulfilling my need to feel whole and complete.
I still craved more. I needed to
be HEALED from the inside out.
After years of battling with 'high functioning substance addiction', my mental health, losing hope, losing people, getting distracted, job hopping and spiraling into a pit of despair, over and over again, I KNEW something had to change.
I was living in a perpetual cycle of PERSONAL HELL.
Working three, sometimes four minimum-wage, dead-end jobs at a time, just so I could afford to live and pay my debts, I was EXHAUSTED and DRAINED.
I was relying on cannabis every day just to numb the pain of life and be able to function without having a breakdown.
The flame had officially vanished into a puff of smoke.
I had reached BURNOUT.
The minimum wage-earning,
people-pleasing, naïve and helpless little bird had lost all of her feathers…
And after flapping around in a panic for so long, I was making myself unwell and I fell... all the way to rock bottom.
Again.
My body needed rest and I knew I was destined for a better life than this. I’d had enough of struggling and barely keeping my head above the water.
And just when you give up looking for the answers on the outside and start looking within, you shall receive exactly what you ask for...
And Then I Found My Light
For the first time ever, I had an
opportunity to properly get to know myself and think about who I was.
I realised that of all the things I had been interested in, holistic health, spirituality and personal development were three things that I felt CONSISTENTLY passionate about.
AT LAST, I had found a thread to hold onto.
I decided to focus on ONE the thing that mattered most.
My 'Self'.
All aspects of it; physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
I spent a whole summer, (aside from working and taking nature walks) locked in my room, consuming content on mental, spiritual, physical and emotional health.
From books, to podcasts, YouTube videos, social media content of my favourite influencers, you name it.
I became OBSESSED with healing myself and learning everything I possibly could about how to make my dreams come true.
I became so DETERMINED to make a success out of myself. The more I learned, the more addicted I got.
I FINALLY started to heal.
I finally felt like I had found my purpose, and I made it my mission to manifest my dreams into reality.
Fast Forward To Now
Fast forward to now and I am an ambitious, confident and capable woman who believes in herself and stands strong in her power, knowing that she can achieve anything she puts her mind to.
I live everyday with passion and purpose, and it is now my life's mission to help other women on their spiritual journey.
My journey to becoming a spiritual empowerment and transformation coach played a huge part in my personal success. I've learned so much along the way, about myself, about business, and most importantly, about helping others.
But it doesn't stop there!
I have mastered ways of altering my perspective, so that I can live in harmony between where I am now and where I want to be.
I found my SELF.
- My own sense of DIRECTION
- My own source of INSPIRATION
- My own ideas of SUCCESS
- The ability to overcome anything that life throws at me and re-ignite my inner fire any time it goes out.
I learned to create my own version of HAPPINESS and, most importantly, I finally found the courage and the confidence to step into my TRUE POWER and SPIRITUAL PURPOSE.
Along the way, I overcame many challenges...and I’m sure there will be plenty more; because that is a part of life.
The difference now is, because of my journey, I have been able to pick up useful tools and techniques along the way, which have helped me to navigate myself through the darkness of my own thoughts, limiting beliefs and feelings.
I finally broke the endless cycle of my own self-sabotaging behaviours.
I’ve learned how to pick myself up, maintain that self-belief and stay focused on my goals, no matter what.
I can now recognise when I start to feel that pull- when I’m battling with my own thoughts and feelings- and I can steer myself back on track almost immediately.
I made a PROMISE to myself that I would never let myself go there again.
I no longer give up at the first hurdle. I've learned to push past my fears and to stop worrying about all the things that could go wrong.
Most importantly, I plucked up the courage to face my inner demons and transform myself into the woman I always wanted to be.
I built a solid bridge between my personal hell and my dream reality.
I made a PROMISE to myself to always get back up, no matter how tough life gets.
I made a PROMISE to always believe in myself, and to take consistent actions that align with my dreams.
I no longer seek external validation.
I now feel happy and confident in my own skin.
I no longer feel that endless hunger for the approval of others; constantly changing myself to feel accepted.
I live my life on MY terms.
I no longer feel like a victim of my life.
I no longer feel like those dreams are so far out of reach, because I am already creating the life I desire.
Because I know I DESERVE it.
And so do you!
Let Me Hold Your Hand
That’s why I want to help other
women who are battling the same inner demons and toxic patterns as I used to.
I remember how it feels to have
such HUGE aspirations, yet be DEBILITATED by having such little confidence, self-belief and self-esteem.
I remember how it feels to be completely OVERWHELMED with self-doubt.
I remember how it feels to SO DESPERATELY want to change my life, but always ending up self-sabotaging in some way- always scared to take the leap and fully commit to my dreams.
I permanently changed myself and my life from the inside out.
I dug deep, uncovered all of those inner wounds, and learned how to HEAL myself.
I finally learned to believe in myself and plucked up the courage and determination to manifest the life I've always dreamed of.
Now it’s MY turn to help YOU.
My dedication to myself and my own self-coaching journey has opened up a doorway for me to be able to be a guide and a mentor to others, who are also now experiencing the same thoughts, feelings and behaviours that I did.
I can now hold someone’s hand as they find their own sense of DIRECTION, source of INSPIRATION and ideas of SUCCESS.
I can help other women to eliminate self-doubt, self-sabotage and overwhelm for GOOD and start feeling empowered, confident and reborn in 90 days or less.
I can help other women to transform their pain into power.
I built my own bridge, and now I can help you build yours.
Are you ready to turn inner turmoil into inner harmony, self-doubt into self-belief, self-sabotage into self-love and procrastination into determination?
If my story resonated with you, then I invite you to book a complimentary, one-to-one coaching session with me.
It's Time To Take Some Action
If you’re ready break free of everything that's holding you back from achieving your dreams and become the BEST version of YOU, then I invite you to book a complimentary, one-to-one discovery session with me.
During our session together, we will:
- Explore your goals and dreams to identify exactly what it is you want to achieve.
- Pinpoint exactly what's been holding you back from pursuing your dreams and becoming the person you want to be.
- Discuss practical solutions and methods to see what will work for YOU specifically.
- Get to know each other a little and see if we're the right fit.
Why Should You Work With Me?
This is NOT a one-size-fits all approach!
I offer bespoke solutions, tailored to each individual, so that we can both navigate this journey together, and remain in spiritual alignment.
This is NOT a sales call.
This is simply an in-depth conversation to allow us to get to know one-another and to see how I can help you.
Unlike many coaches in the industry, I am not just doing this to make a quick buck, portray a certain image or to achieve a certain lifestyle. My own personal journey should be proof of that.
I genuinely care about helping people and being of service to humanity.
This is my soul's calling. Helping other women to step into their power and take the first step to achieving their dreams means so much to me, because I know how it feels to be stuck on the other side with no direction and no-one to hold my hand.
I work with purpose and integrity and I will only offer help to those who are ready to make a change and who I feel will genuinely benefit from my coaching services.
My goal is to help you and to guide you in the right direction, whether it's through me or someone else, because it genuinely fills me with so much joy and spiritual fulfilment to know that I have made a positive impact in some else's life.
I am more than happy to refer you to a more suitable coach or offer an alternative solution if I feel that it will be of greater benefit to you.
So, what are you waiting for?
Let's have a chat and see if we're the right fit. No pressure, just you, me and zoom.
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